thanks for the memories, even if they weren't so great

2008-11-30T18:47:00.003+08:00

i have missed this space (:

This past week has been really really long and tiringg but oh gosh thank god it's coming to a close!
Had work attachment at MOE teacher's network, and i had no idea work could be so draining.
After work plans were what kept me sane i swear, so thank you guys for the company (especially SF and josh!)

This weekend has been quality cousin bonding timee,
because i don't spend enough time a year here.

much love!

2008-09-26T03:11:00.002+08:00

hello (:
its 3.18 am and i'm here to revive my dying, half dead blog.

That's mostly because i've moved over to www.graceaik.livejournal.com mostly!
it's 85% friend locked only (:

So its been a pretty hectic weekend and week,
Thank God the exams are coming to a close really soon.
I should go back to studying literature now.

no i can't spell it out for you,
y'know its never gonna be that simple.

Much love

2008-09-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

Overnight study with Paul was less than productive,
but had a nice, thought provoking conversation which is good (:
I'm awfully glad to have found a friend in you this year, really.

Asyraft's a good study buddy too!
ECONS IS LOVE YES?
SO IS MATH. SO. IS. MATH.

The past few days have been filled with studying studying studying,
with little slots of shopping and catching up with friends.

Eunicee and Shanya dears get well soon! (:
A03, especially Spencer and Berhan, I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE STUDYING YOUR ASSES OFF SOMEWHERE!

Gonna study tomorrow at P.s. with Rebe tomorrow before meeting Jewel for some birthday dinner thing?
I haven't seen that girl in ages!
hopefully tomorrow's gonna be alright (:

I've got this icebox where my heart used to be. (and you're to blame)

Much love.

2008-09-09T10:47:00.002+08:00

Cheap thrills early in the morning but still.
(: (: (: (: (:!
(eunice you're probably the only one who knows what i am talkin about. hahahaha.)

There doesn't feel like enough time,
i really should stop procrastinating.
BUT I'M LACKING SLEEP. ): ): ):<

kayyy this is a reminder to self:
-Get tatenus shot.
-Econs Case study and Essay (due today)
-Finish up Theme 4, China Studies
-Write Outline for AP study plan
-Make a time-table
-Get PW over and done with (for now)
-GET OVER my fear of math and start studying it.

YAY. now all i need is the motivation and love of studying to hit me right. about, now.

all the reasons which make loving you so easy.

muchhhhh<3

2008-09-07T00:09:00.003+08:00

Met up with Rebe, Kun and Conrad todayy!
Three of some of my favourite people (:

It's always awesome to see you guys, dinner was great (i gotta learn how to make food that good, or just cook without burning stuff at least!)
and yes, definately gotta hang out again soon after our promos! <3

I've been catching up on movies.
Watched Wall-e with nick and ohohoh the Shokudo? place at Cine's really quite good go try it (:

Seven deadly sins and The Zodiac are intellectual challenging thrillers which make you realise and wonder about the kind of sick people and things which happen in this world.

Wanted is over-rated really, and the Spiderwick Chronicles is nice on stay in, rainy mornings (:

Random Photo update from sleepover!

Two more weeks to Promos!
i swear it's hard-core studying once school reopens.
help me keep my resolution?
(yes Asyraft keep up the prep-talks) haha

So you sailed away, into a grey sky morning.
I missed you,what a stupid thing to do.

much lovee.

2008-09-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

Today was,
Eunice's Early Surprise birthday party!(:

The hardest part was luring her to Paul's condo without arousing suspicion what with "come on we must study hard, hurry!(into the lift)"

lift door opens, "SURPRISE!" throws balloons and holding a cake while eunice screams and screams and screams. (:

re-enactment for the photographs. =D

lunched! and took a million years gearing ourselves to jump into the pool.
stormed. steam room! cannot breath. screams. camwhores. lazy for proper sentences.

photos. (from atheens, yet to collect fromm paul and zara!) (:

just your presence and i second-guess my sanity.

much love!

2008-09-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

did it ever, ever occur to you that everything you believe to be true may simply be a product of your misconceptions, assumptions and the misled thoughts of an over active imagination?

have you ever, ever wondered how someone who used to be the thought you woke up to every morning could in the space of a few moments turn into something you couldn't stand the sight of?

best friends, ex friends till the end.

With time things change, and we begin to see a clearer picture.

it was simple, and it was beautiful.

much love.

2008-09-01T22:56:00.003+08:00

Photos from teacher's dayy visit back at MG! <3

Went to sherllie's place for a swimm after church and caught up caught up!
but her house is like a subtle trap,
it's totally loaded with unhealthy delicious snacks and comfy couches which make you want to just sit there and watch series all dayyyy! =D

Migrated over to Eunice's after dinner (:
Netball,5nations at night.

I am sleepy.

&it takes so much out of me just to get to you.

Goodnight, much love!

2008-08-29T22:45:00.005+08:00

so Thurday was (unofficially) the last day of school before we break-ed for the one week holiday! (:
Decided to head over to Macs to c
atch up (no it's not retarded to catch up even if ya'll are in the same school.hah.) with Euns and Atheens!
It was really funny how time passed what with the faces and the stories and the questionsss.
I HAVE PHOTOS! but just totally unglamourous so maybe i'll add that to my own private collection. =D

ooooh on a random side note i've been shopping! and finally cleared up my wadrobe so yayness!
rebee! shopping dateee soonish (maybe after promos) and atheens too! (secret shops!) is <3.
Headed down to town after to meet those coming from STC which to have sushi buffet!
IT WAS DARN FILLING. i still feel as though imma burst any moment noww.
I learnt a new game! but i dont know its namee, but it's fun in a retarded laugh yourself silly for nothing kind of game.
had a nice, (educational?) chat at the coffee place outside cine before rushing down to meet ale for tuition. (:

ohohoh! There's this person at tuition who looks SO DARN FAMILIAR but i can't place for the past one month it's so retarded i keep staring and coming of as a stalker. haha. oh well. (:

My fifteen minutes are up!
muchlove(:

2008-08-23T13:20:00.004+08:00

gave myself a long weekend from thurday till sunday becausee i haven't been feeling well!
i suspect its due to a combination of lack of sleep + lack of food + too much work = a sick me.

but the hours and hours of make up sleep worked wonders!
anddd there's only one last week of official school before the promotional exams (:

anywayyy, here's a dedicated post to you atheeens!

ATHEENA (:

hello girllll, this was the most normal looking photo i could find of us from today's camwhoringg! =D

It's amazingg how we managedd to click since those random days where you were eunice's classmate and i never thought we'd end up talkingg and hangingg out.

I'm awfully glad to have found a friend/confident and FELLOW SHOPPER in you!
(despite the fact that everytime we go shopping i tend to buy anything and everything on impulse, 3pairs of shoes, 2tops, 1dress and counting.)
From the random starbucks conversations,secretshops(HAH),nightstudy company and randomrants and latenight onlineconversationn, thanks for all the times you've heard me go on and on about THAT and everything else (:

okay i shall stop now before it gets too weirdddd and mushy or anythingggg.
take awesome care of yourself and study hardd!
may we all do our best and head on to next year togetherrrr.
remember to invite me to ! and yes, much love.

2008-08-17T19:40:00.002+08:00

today was not exactly the most productive day of all but i loved it all the same (:
Was awesome catching up with you guys and every time we get closer i realize how lucky i am to have ya'll! <3

had a long talk with my mom last night about how my parents met, dating etc and it's really funny how things work out!

Promos are in 33 days! (well at least according to Hazique's msn nick) so yes,
it's time to MUGGGGG. (:

you give yourself too much credit love.
who are they anyway?

much love!

2008-08-16T12:17:00.002+08:00

quiz i took off cyn!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

judge the accuracy for yourself? haha.

NOW I SHALL DISAPPEAR AND STUDY.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

muchlove.

2008-08-14T22:36:00.003+08:00

time flies really really fast and far away?
just stop, take a deep breath and move on.

I should do King Lear, but tonight's just not a lit night.
the moon's really bright tonight (:

Weekend's are coming! soonn, just not soon enoughhh.

Y'know,
Even though you may see a person every day, or almost,
it feels as though you haven't seen him/her/them in a gazillion years.
Or it just feels distant, and sometimes even awkward.
As the person is still THERE, but disappearing with each passing hour.
oh rawh.

And when we go "i miss you" "them" "how things used to be",
how much of an effort do we put into holding on to these things?
Time passes, things change, people disappear and we watch.
oh and yeah,
i miss you too.

runaway with me?

much love.

2008-08-12T18:59:00.002+08:00

for having her best interests at heart,
you sure have a funny way of showing it.

Seeing you now, it fills me with this sense of dread.
I can't explain it, and i sure as hell can't make it go away.

is it really possible to be so completely,
oblivious?

much love.

2008-08-12T17:16:00.002+08:00

hello. at the school's cafe now and i feel so darn TIRED.
It's only tuesday but i feel. so. drained.

Thank God for Webcams! They cheer you up.
random conversations with Josh about artificial stars?
and omg, Mary Han I miss you so darn much i think i'll start going online in the afternoons so i can catch you onlinee (: (:

Anyhow, pictures ( overdued) from sonia from
Ice skating/NationalDay/StudyDateAtGuthrie/RandomNightStudy(:
*IMAGE HEAVISH*

much love! (:

2008-08-12T00:30:00.004+08:00

The past few days have been such a blur - literally.

bad habits are hard to break, but does that mean you stop trying?
God lets things happen for a reason, but have you learnt your lesson?

on a lighter note, it was great seeing everyone again.
major catch up sessions all weekend (:

1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

1:8 My son, hear the instruction of thy father, and forsake not the law of thy mother

1:9 For they shall be an ornament of grace unto thy head, and chains about thy neck.

Thank you God for putting people in my life, people who genuinely care and are there to set me on the right path even after i've gone wrong.

i need you, your mercy, your wisdom and your strength.

much love.

2008-08-06T11:44:00.002+08:00

talking to you first thing in a morning makes for a great day. (:

yesterday! headed to guthrie with Sonia after school where we met up with Shan and Fang! (:
Saw Debbie and Grace there as well, was awesome catching up with you guys.
FANG IS SO MUCH GIRLIER NOW. hahahaha. you'd only get what i mean if you've spent like, 4years knowing her. Back in Sec two where we all were so, different yet the same?
pictures up when i get them from sonia!

headed down to Holland V latter on in the night to have dinner at Thai Express with shan.<3
i had claypot black pepper soft shell crab glass noodles!
really missed you guys and sleeepover soonish (:

I don't want to lose you,
But i don't want you to stay.

alecia's face is classic.

it's funny how some move on
& others are still stuck in their own little worlds of drama.

bell rang.
much love!

2008-08-04T23:15:00.001+08:00

i am tired.

much love.

2008-08-03T00:55:00.001+08:00

i never meant for it to get so personal

It takes two

2008-08-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

Tonight was awesome.
With all the shiz that has happened this week, i really needed that one hour or so of unrestricted fun and laughter. I guess all three of us did.

Thanks you guys for the company! (:
Who would have thought going crazy at the playground would prove to be such an effective form of retail theraphy?
Even though the people around us probably thought we were mad kids,
it was really, liberating.
To not care about what they thought, and just enjoy yourself in the most fundamental ways.
simplicity at its best. (:

I guess we're all kids at heart.
And it's amazing how open and accepting they are at such young ages.
Met a couple of korean kids before we left and OMG they are like, really cute.
And some can speak in what, 4 different laguages at the age of 7?
Decided to play "be the customer" followed by "ice and melt"
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED ICE AND MELT? =D

twirling and jumping around in circles, we all fall down.

I thank God for moments like these. For the people he places in life which help you get through the day. For never forsaking, no matter how ungrateful we are.
For always walking with us every step of the way, no matter how tedious the journey.
(:

you crash through the walls i built around me,
so i burn the bridges which lead me back to you.

much love.

2008-07-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

Today's GP class was quite, quite disturbing.
We watched youtube videos on "honour killing",
a practice which is still prevailently carried out in countries such as Pakistan.
Women are killed by their very own families, fathers, brothers and cousins,
for various unjustified reasons such as refusal to comply with an arranged marriage,
acting like a german, marrying outside your caste, being raped.
being raped is seen as Adultery and the women are stoned to death.
first they are violated against their will, then they get condemned and killed for it because THEY HAVE BROUGHT SHAME TO THE FAMILY?
i don't understand how an entire community can be so accpeting of such morally flawed values and beliefs!
We should honestly be so grateful for our lives.

Anyway, I FINALLY WATCHED THE DARK KNIGHT TODAY!
I love love love the story line it kept me in constant suspense!
my heart was beating damn hard throughout and i swear my ears were numbed because i kept pressing my hands to them and hiding my eyes under my thumbs. if that made any sense at all.
sat at coffeebean with taili to catch up catch up before having to head back because it's a school day tomorrow.

racial harmony day celebrations!
and i really would dress up, maybe, but i have no ethnic costumes so, sorry ): ):

oh yes and shopping with ernest is SO TIRING.
hahahahaha. lets learn to be a little more impulsive shall we?

i miss you.

much love! (:

2008-07-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

The sun is evil,
it makes my skin start to peel ONE WEEK after i went swimming.

Anyhows, EUNICE TAY. you better not over sleep again i haven't seen you in ONE MONTH you stupid girl. Whatever happened to "i'll see you soon?"

Daniel, our lunch is never going to work out, i give up. hah. =D

Headed to town with Mun and Daffeny and ate at P.s before walking IN THE HOT SUN (because i missed my stop, it was one stop) to SMU to meet up with zara and jia li to study!

well i wouldn't say it was the most productive study session i've had but it was fun (:
there were people dancing, singing and drumming in the background!
and OHMYGOD.
half way through some mad lady came up to us and started saying nonsense stuff to zara. then she turned to me, shoved her middle finger in front of my face and said something along the lines of "THIS CAN BE USED TO MAKE BABIES". and then just walked away.
IT WAS TRAUMATIZING. ):
other then that, i'm pretty happy with how the day turned out except WE DIDN'T TAKE PHOTOS even though we wanted to because NO ONE SUGGESTED IT. haha. stupid reasons i know.

anyway i love Carrie underwood's songs! from both the Carnival Ride and Some Hearts albums. you could listen to the songs over and over again and not get sick of it.
i think it's the voicee.

i want to online shop.

need to do homework now!

it's not like i'm not trying

much lovee! (:

2008-07-26T23:27:00.004+08:00

i took 5minutes logging in because i couldn't remember the password.
proof I'm growing old ):

Anyhow! spent most of today at Kallang Netball Centre! (:
it was our first time playing as a team and i'm satisfied with the way we played and though there's definately room for improvement, it was a great first effort!
bumped into Ruth Chloe and Jaime too and i really think Singapore's a tiny place.
Subway-ed with Eunice (ling) for breakfast before that!
i want to try the subway melt next time.
did a little bit of rushed shopping before busing down for netball!
My stomach's doing a weird little contraction thing and it hurts,
i think i need food.

edit//
Anyway, Pictures!

Temasek Seminar
The Little Country That Can - this was the theme of the 18th Temasek Seminar held at the SAFTI Military Institute, it was alright i guess? we discussed challenges facing Singapore, qualities that Singaporeans possessed that would enable the country to deal with the challenges, and examples of local success stories that reflected Singapore's 'can do' spirit.haha. Minister for Defence Teo Chee Hean and Senior Minister of State for Education, RADM (NS) Lui Tuck Yew were the ones speaking this year. i enjoyed the buffet lunch provided after and well as the tour they gave us around the army museum! thank god Mel,Carol and XueLi went too!
there were some lulls in the program, where we just waited, and waited and waited,
and i guess the end part where the buses took FOR-E-VER to come was pretty horrid but besides that, it was pretty fun and informative (:
Benjamin and Samuel were there too apparently! didn't get to see them though,
bumped into this ex MG girl nurshika? i don't know how to spell her name but ahh,
we missed founders day ):

Headed back to night study after but really, i was too tired for anything.
Attempted to for a bit before giving up and heading to BPP for dinner with Siti and Eunice!

Berhan's Dinner

okay details up another time! my mom is chasing me off to bed.

i do.
even it's wrong, even if it's twisted.

much love (:

2008-07-24T10:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BERHAN. (:
(i hope you won't kill me for the photo) HAHA.

quick update!
I didn't have an arguement with my CT or anything.
so the way i acted after school had nohing to do with her.

Stayed back with lau, ginny and atheens for night study!
it was quite productive. i think i'll try and make it a daily habit (:

Dinner-ed at New york new york with Eunice, Hans, Leonard and LingXin before heading home! (:
i am a fat pig. but quite a happy,contented one.

Tonight's a perfect shade of dark blue.

much love!

2008-07-22T23:28:00.003+08:00

random photos from last/this week!

I have this really terrible tan linee and sun burned skin ):

yes sorry conrad, its THE DARK KNIGHT!
and kun, message me soon we gotta hang! (:

I need to focus.
Met Nick for dinner at NYDC today and caught up!

sleepy sleepy sleepy.

cheer up love (:

goodnight!

2008-07-19T23:38:00.004+08:00

who wants to watch THE DARK NIGHT! (:

I'm extremely disappointed in you.
Perhaps we didn't exactly part on the best of terms,
but i never said anything malicious about you,
nor do i react the way you do.
Learn to tell between "i don't give a damn" and true indifference,please.

2008-07-17T16:20:00.005+08:00

Today was Such a long day.
Well at least, it Felt like a long day.
It ended with a lit review lecture?
which made me feel really really stupid.
It feels as though i have completely lost the ability to think and write.
I need inspiration.
Existential angst doesn't seem very easy nor pleasant yet necessary and unavoidable?

Anyhow, on a total random note,
got to know ale better in a very weird way =D
through the ABCs (insidee)

I scare easily.

Headed to town with Paul and caught up a bit more before meeting Shan <3 for dinner at Taka! Y'know that place is kinda scary when its dark and the fountain switches off suddenly?

Field trip? to Pulau Tekong (BMTC) the day before.

It was alright i guess! Got to know a little bit more about what happens at camp and everything seemed rather, relaxed?
But i guess they would only show us the positive sides and all.
Only till after you've enlisted will they reveal the tougher face of it.
The simulation of the shooting range of M16 was quite fun, and the Obstacle course thingy looked quite interesting? The food surprising tasted better than it looked!
It came in weird, unappetizing army green packets with many different kinds of food inside! and other stuff but yes. Had dinner with some of the class before heading home to SLEEEEEEEEEEEP (:

Anyhow pictures! (and one or two random ones)

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.

much love.

2008-07-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

i love random talks at random places,
like snuggling in the tunnel at the playground while it rains outside(:

i miss you,
and i hate the distance,
but there's nothing i can do about it so
lets play a game of make-believe,
shall we?

2008-07-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

I PASSED LIT (:
okay so it's not really an awesome grade, i KNOW i can do better and i definately will have to start working hard soon if i want to get the grades I'm aiming for!
So all the results are in,
BBCDSU (Econs, chinastudies, GP, Lit, Chinese, Math)
Ain't too bad i guess? but not exactly fantastic so BUCK UP GRACE (:

right now, i'm just really sleepy from all the running during PE followed by PT during netball!
i need a bed and a nice long rest.

maybe i'll oversleep tonight.

i hate how you see through me so easily but I'll never be able to say the same about you.

lets get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.

much love!

2008-07-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

haha! sorry rebe =D
i promise i won't talk about promos again until uh, there are four more weeks left yes? (:

WARNING:wordy.

Friday's training was the most unofficial training yet but it was rather fun even though at time's it was just a mess, with us running all three courts in random directions and screaming. Coach will only be back friday i think? We neeeed to train if we want to play our best at pesta sukan this coming saturday! (:

Headed for dinner after with the Eunices! Ling left first so me and lau decided to go sit at this deserted bus stop and talk. But the buses and cars got really annoying and loud so we moved to this park nearby! Wanted to hijack these two bikes and go riding off but nooo, we couldnt ):
It's really quiet and pretty, the kind of place i like to go to alone or with a close friend and just spend the night together. maybe i'll do that sometime sooon (:

Had to wake up early to attend the sports forum which was urgh, such a waste of time but oh well, at least i got to talk to siti!
headed to BPP for lunch, MOS BURGER <3 before heading down to Watch Drumfest auditions with Joce,Jay and Jem before going down to Grace Methodist Church for a follow up service (:
really enjoyed the worship and messages shared, i love how God speaks through so many people, no matter who or where you are he'll find some way to convey his message to you(:

Headed down to Shokudo(sp?) at raffles city for dinner to meet Suet, Shanya,Wen, Megan, Lydia and Anna! I don't see you guys much, (well except maybe shanya) but it's really nice to know we all still manage to keep in touch despite being in different classes, schools and countries!(:
Camwhored a little bit near the esplanade before we all left.
Suet! it was awesome seeing you and hope you'll visit again soon babe (:

Headed down to Bedok after! Originally planned to go to East Coast but i was feeling eeky and in desperate need of a change of clothes so change of venue!
On a rather random note, i love finding a friend whom you can instantly connect with and have so much in common!
a decade/dozenyear older version of me. (insidejoke=D)

random note? i love phantom of the opera =D

Met Joash for dinner and a quick study session before heading back home!
i am so sleepy now my brain feels funny so,
goodnight! (:

much love.

2008-07-10T14:00:00.005+08:00

well, the results are all in, (almost) and i guess it's time to SETTLE DOWN AND GO INTO SCHOOL MODE!
I'm thankful that econs and china studies managed to pull through to a B(:
but still need to work on my GP!(C) and everything else actually.
oh let's not forget literature. (which is probably going to be pretty horrendous)
): ):

Two and a quarter months/nine weeks/sixty-three days till PROMOTIONAL EXAMS.
It sounds really far away yet near?
I'm scared but not,
worried yet excited.
Weird.

Played a friendly yesterday against Srjc and saw mag!(:
Even though we won it wasn't a very well played game i think so like,
let's focus (:

Headed to BBP for dinner with lau after at MOS BURGER which we've missed. =D

So anyhow, My dad's back (:

and right now i'm feeling so oifkjgnsdfiusdfngl adufhgadkfgabdfkjgnal dkgnaldfkgjnaldfkjg.
i need a hug ):

I'm not much good at faking it.

much love.

2008-07-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Just finished showering and ohgosh i feel so so so awake. (:
anyhow,
had dinner at taka, Souel(sp?) garden with Pui Yee, Joce, Berhan, Cynric, Ernest and Wyner(sp?) and ohmygoodness i take it back i feel so sleepy now.
so i shall edit this tommorrow!
but i haven't laugh so much and so hard in a long time (:

edit//
okay okay it's SEOUL garden thanks. =D
and you guys are so PURE and INNOCENT in thoughts and speech, so totally UNCORRUPTIVE and only singluar in meaning with every sentence spoken.
No food was burnt and the fishballs weren't eaten raw.
pui yee got some, interesting? presents!
the bell rang.

much love!

2008-07-08T14:48:00.003+08:00

headed down to changi last night with andesson to send granville off!
i think i shouldn't have cabbed back and forth but oh well,
the ride was interesting.
i will miss you much and oh gosh i never knew your dad was chinesee!
but yeahhh, come back soon (:

OH YES. as i was walking out of deb's place i bumped into HUANG SOON HYUNG! (: (: (:
i've missed you so so so much and that was like an ultimate pleasent surprise of the dayy.

OH YES. my results have been TERRIBLE ):
got back Chinese and Math, my two most horrendous subjects.
but oh well i deserve it so like,
it's time to stop messing around and study harder!
i.need.discipline. (and less distractions)

so anyhow, i'm in the school library noww waiting for it to be 3o'clock so we can head down to get pui yee her mac spicy and birthday cake? HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL (:

hope you have an awesome time tonight with us! (:
okay okay will be back soonish!

when you're standing alone in a crowd.

much love.

2008-07-07T15:01:00.004+08:00

At debbie's place now and ohmygoodness it just keeps raining and raining and raining.
anyhow, quick update before i go back to watching legally blonde 1,2 and cruel intentions.
(i lacked the presence of television in my growing up years)

saturday:
i never knew preparing breakfast took so longg.
Woke up in the morning and realized that everyone else had already woken up and left!
so i decided to try making breakfast for myself.
A simple sandwhich took FOREVER. and i'm still not quite sure how long an egg takes to boil.

Anyhow, went for reggae with sophia after before rushing down to church for cell.We were going to have ice cream and pizza after but ahhh, i had to leave early and right now typing all this makes me crave icee cream and waffles.): ):

So i was like, starving the entire time and thinking about three hours of tuition which lied ahead that i was rushing for made me want to faint but ohmygoodness,
pleasently surprised to find out the centre was well stocked.So i decided to pig out with Alecia =D
It was quite fun, saw quite a number of people from pj there and a couple of people who looked familiar but couldnt quite place.

random? but i hateee it when that happens! like when someone looks so so so darn familiar but you can't remember whyyy and so you spend hours trying to figure out whyy but at the end of the day you still don't know.

Sunday:
Helped out at Sunday School with the P1-P3 class and oh my goodness i think back to how we used to be at that age and it amazes me yet again how time flies and how we grow up so fast, too fast. But what i love about kids is that they are so easy to read and they don't know how to manupliate.

Went for lunch with Daffeny, Dorcas and Mun where we made plans which i am sure we will look back and laugh at.
Can't wait for the Campus Camp! (: though i have a funny feeling i might have to miss school.

Headed over to Deb's place to swim!
the water's really really cold so the heated jacuzzi felt like heaven seriously.
but oh, no sun ): ):
headed out for Dinner with Deb, WangJing, Hannah and Abigail! for the first time since like, netball at kallang i had KFC popcorn chicken (: (:

decided to sleepover for the first time in a long time again (:

I'm reading Mary's reply now on how she was "honestly shocked to recieved my email" made me realize how i haven't been keeping in contact with her and some others, how out of touch we get and not to take friends for granted.

i guess i lost you somewhere, somehow, along the way.
and there's no going back, is there?

i have this annoying muscle pull which makes me walk funny ):
going to go stretch and hunt down the tube of ben and jerry's in the fridge now.

much love (:

2008-07-05T13:05:00.002+08:00

I watched get smart yesterday!
it's pretty funny in a slapstick humour kind of way (:
next i wana watch, Hancock and Wantedd!

Anyhow, town was pretty crowded the whole of yesterday!
you bump into someone at every corner. haha.
Met up with granville, sulei, andersson (: and some others whose names i can't remember at the moment :X

lunched, pooled, movied, starbucked, pooled, dinner.

on a random note,
people watching is quite fun.

Heyy friend, (if you know who you are) CHEER UP! i will be here to listen anyway (:

you say the words but i don't hear a sound.

much love (:

2008-07-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

though it's like the holidays,
we had to go back to school for PW ): ):
AND I HAD TO STAY BACK FOR STINKING MATH.
but i guess it wasn't so bad?
I'm so giving tomorrow's session a miss though!

caught 21 with Ginny, Atheens and Eunice!
it was quite a nice movie though slightly draggy at certain scenes!
but we all liked it, so go watch it. (:

Heading back to meet Conrad to Gym!
i need my fitness back, desperately.
I SACRIFICED MY DARK CHOCOLATE. hahahahaha.

anyway pictures pictures (:

and with time we learn to forget.

much love! (:

2008-07-02T13:07:00.006+08:00

Met Lydia and Bernice with Lau at KAP and attempted to study P&P.
i tried this new drink, which is totally totally horrendous,
omega 3 high calcium soya bean. haha. =D

saw granville, Bemon, Brent and Timo afterr
and ohgosh,
you guys are totally not a good influence! haha.
but fun company yes. (:
Headed to town with Grann and caught up some moree.
i will miss you much <3

This is totally a day late but,
THE MID YEARS ARE FINALLY FINALLY OVER (:
though today doesn't feel any different from the rest.

I liked the poem we had to annotate, "Boy at the Window" (:
Though I'm not too sure if my annotations made sense and was totally clueless on how to structure a Pride and Prejudice answer.

Headed for breakfast/lunch with Paul, Atheens, Eunice and Alecia at pasta mania before heading to Jurong to ice skate! =D
pictures pictures but omg,

towards the end, Eunice fell and gave us the scare of the day.
she hurt her arm/wrist so we all cabbed down to NUH to get her examined, x-rayed and bandaged before cabbing back.
GET WELL SOON LAU!
I'll visit youuu when you're allowed visitors. haha. =D

Dinnered/caught up at pepper lunch, Taka with melissa!
it was awesome seeing you again tuesday friend,
meet up again sooonish! (:

went swimming this morningggg,
i am never going swimming alone again. :X

kayyy, lunch time!
much love (:

lets play a game of confessions,
shall we?

2008-06-30T11:24:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting in the MG library now, oh so cold but oh so happy (:
walking in through the gates it suddenly occurred to me that we've walked by those gates at least twice a day, five times a week, four weeks a month and 10months a year!

like eunice said, it's funny how the compuound holds so many memories for us,
back from when we were little girls of ages 7and8 running about not having a care in the world.

met fellow MG girls of 07 angie, kelly, joyce, erica, jia ying, joanne,(:
juniors! jiap, sam, ting, tiam, melinda (: etc etc and random peoples.
mrs kuan, mrs cheong! ohmygoodness i miss my teachers ):
it's like we left physically, but at the same time we're the ones left behind.

there were even older MG girls around,
like those graduated 5years back?
and they are still visiting (:
i hope ten years down the road we'll still be back,
for past vs present, for founders, or simply just because.

okay needs to goes to studies now. (:
KAP KAP KAP!
another place which holds many many many many memories.
good and bad, beginnings and ends.

muchlove (:

2008-06-30T00:06:00.001+08:00

when you told me that you loved me,
were those just words?

2008-06-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

after a very terrible paper (mathematics),
followed by an equally terrible experience, (A level Chinese oral)
me and lau decided to go on a loooong bus ride,
with music and comfortable silence.
(:
bumped into char(leen) at wisma, she's still as tall and skinny and smart but silly as ever!
headed to Holland V, starbucked and played "would you rather?"
had crystal jade to satisfy xiao long bao cravings<3 before char joined us! (:
and then we all headed down back to this very very very belovedly missed place, MGS!
to attain an event which meant alot to all of us, Love MG. (:

met loads of MG girls, both past and present!
saw the Love Mg creww <3
and the whole thing made me realise how much i've been taking such a simple thing such as chapel for granted.

In our whole lives in MG,
we've had close to 520ish chapels?
that's 520 mornings of worship and praise, opportunity to draw closer to God.
Not including the daily morning devotions, special chapels, personal worship sessions.
That's a whole lot of time put aside for God,
maybe that's why he seemed so much closer before.

For some reason,
we all seem to love to fill our lives with noise.
Audio Noise, Visual Noise, things to occupy ourselves with.
and then we say we fail to hear God speak.
Many times we look for God in all the wrong places,

1 Kings 19:11-12
And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake:
And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

Often we look for Him in the winds, the earthquake, the fire.
We expect some sort of great sign, something obvious and great.
But often he speaks through us in the silence cause it is in the silence that we truly begin to hear him.

God is the Almighty Creator and He is all wise.
He can do anything, but He also has reasons for doing exactly what He knows is the best for all of His creation.
His silence can only be something we need in order to further develop the character points of patience, trust, faith and perseverance.
All of these traits are very good and necessary for us.
God knows us all best, inside out.
sometimes too, His silence is an answer we need to understand.
we need to trust in Him and continually come back into his presence,
cause he loves and will never forsake you. <3
Sometimes we don't feel his presence, you may think he's not there.
But often times we fail to realize that he is there with us every step of the way,
and is always willing to be our strength and comfort,
if only we ask.

2008-06-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

academically, i would say today was pretty darn terrible.
firstly! i overslept.
and well, chinese being chinese i guess i did the best i could.
i totally, totally, totally screwed up literature ):
that was, i suppose, the all time low of today?

but that aside,
i got to bump into roanna and steph!
it's always awesome to bump into old friends and catch up!
apparently MG's changing,
and not in a good way. ):
talked for like close to an hour before i realised i had to head home to study,
for math. ahhh. math.
time flies when you have alot of things to catch up upon!
and yes its a bloody small world it continually amazes me how news travels.

but on a happier note, i'm getting my onlinee clothes tommorrow!!
and LOVE MG (:
which is a pretty awesome end to the weekdays.

kayyy much love!

2008-06-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

but it don't matter,
cause i've got you.(:

THANK GOODNESS FOR THE ONE CHILD POLICY AND CONFUCIANISM. =D
even if i do fail China Studies,
at least it won't be so terrible?
two papers down, two more to go!
awesomeness.(:

headed to town with paul and lau for lunch before catching a moviee, Pnelope! (:
it's quite nice, and cute, and a typical chick flick but not as predictable as the usual ones, i likedddd.
starbuck-ed, played "what if" alot,
met/bumped into shanya and yvelyn and bernette and jia hui! (:
at some nghee ann thing it was quite fun like the whole dancing to the drums thing i forgot what it was called!
but had to leave early cause there are mid years );
but oh well.

Love Mg's coming up!
i miss chapel, alot.

i need to go study now,
much loveee.

2008-06-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

Econs is OVER (: (:
i think i kind of screwed up the case study section and left out parts of information in my PC essay but who cares!
one paper downnn and like, 3 more to go?
Tommorrow is china studies and i am CLUELESS as to what/how to study for it. :X

lunched with joash and the eunices before heading over to starbucks to study!
satisfied my cravingggs and i am contented with todayyy.

Danny is being so annoying,
in a being-your-conscious-to-study-nag-you-to-death kind of way.
(:

say what you want,
but base them on something other than assumptions and half-truths.

my stomach feels funnyy i think maybe i drank too much of the dark chocolate mocha frapp afterall? :X
okay china calls,
studyyy time!

They carved a message deep within our broken hearts that failed to mend,
Make out kids never had a chance to be best friends.

much love!

2008-06-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?
'Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.

stop. i don't want to do this anymore.

ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.
ECONOMICS IS LOVE.

it suddenly randomly occured to me mids are probably the closest thing to a major exam since the days of Olevels! time flies.
and i'm looking foward but not, to school.
it's a funny mix of apprehension and excitement?
i don't know.

cramming is so the way to go.

much love.

2008-06-23T00:03:00.004+08:00

on a rather random note, i have been spending alot alot of time with rebe and kun these past few days! (:
it's almost like he opened a place called chalet@kun's.

Anyway, church stayover was awesome cause i got to spend time with my loves even though sherllie couldn't make it this timee. it's really great to know that you guys are always there no matter what! we've all gone through our fair share of bitch fights, making up, getting to know each other better, good times, bad times, being there for each other and coming closer these past two years! it's a 17year friendship for some of us, and i hope we'll have many many more years (: i know i don't spend that much time with ya'll and YES MUN I AM REALLY SORRY OKAY. but just want you all to know you all mean alot and i love you guys much! <3

what's the point of all this secrecy?

mid years are starting in about 8hours for some, ALLTHEBESTEST (:

much love.

2008-06-19T22:14:00.003+08:00

Comment/tag with a ! and I'll:
1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with something - random, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favourite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this on your LJ/blog. (:

anyway, on a random note,
i love online shopping it's superly addictiveeee!
rebe got me started on it last night. =D

i'm back from stayover at kuns! (:
and my head is still throbbing, throbbing.
but hopefully it gets better with loads of water and rest?
the guys all have a sadistic? streak i swear.
i wanted to watch enchanted! (HAHA EUNICE IF YOUARE READING THIS ITS YOUR INFLUNCE)
but noooo,
so we watched Silent scream, scream 3, and saw 3.
gory, gory, scary shiz. ):
i STILL don't understand dota.

wenqian's the cutest luh. one shot and his face goes red like some sunburnt apple!
and the way he talks. hahaha =D

let loose, he pours his heart out.
take care of yourself, friend.
we'll be here (:

anyway thanks kun for being a good host and taking awesome care of the rest of us (:
even though you DID get us all locked out of the house in the morning so we had to go eat prata to kill time and hunt down a locksmith. XD
rebe! i'm really glad we had time to talk and get to know each other much better!
yes it's a pity we didn't know we'd hit off so easily last year but hey we've got many many years to come yes? and thailand! (hopefully) and shopping! haha.
thank you rest for the company it was enjoyable (besides the scary shows and the headache) much. (:
i learnt many new things about random issues and people.

pictures when/if i get em from nick!
details on rebe's blog. (:

okay seriously,
it's the last week of the holidays and i KNOW i'm not doing enough but somehow the time just doesn't seem to be suffice and i know i brought this all upon myself but
it's too late to regret this shiz and everyone seems to be saying the same thing so let's all buck up,mug your heart out (to the best of your ability) these last few days and all the best for the upcoming mids!

meeting shanya and chow tommorrow at her new place tommorrow,
can't wait. <3

ohmygod i'm heating up this is not cool,
now's not the best time to be falling sick. ):

much love

2008-06-16T23:57:00.002+08:00

i wasted my weekend away, like seriously but oh i enjoyed quality time with the family mostly so i am feeling quite contented and guilt-free (relatively) about neglecting those notes of mine.

celebrated father's day sunday night!(:
had dinner at cafe cartel where every person was present (:
finally had like father-daughter time which i am only starting to treasure but thank goodness not too late!
it only hit me during dinner that my dad has been serving in indonesia since 2000 and we really don't see him as much as we would like to ):
but i'm thankful i've got such a great daddy.
Happy father's day <3

Anyway! J2 farewell todayyyyyyy.
though in the beginning everything was really messy and rushed,
it turned out well in the end (:
seniors will be missed much and i hope the 2008/2009 will be able to come together as a team in time to come!
anyway pictures pictures! (:
thanks so munch ling for uploading em all onto your photobucket!

rest up later,
much love (:

2008-06-15T00:35:00.003+08:00

is it really so hard to believe that there's nothing, going on?

Anyway pictures from todayy (: (:

all our secrets they are tailored trouble.

much love!

2008-06-13T13:08:00.007+08:00

firstly, birthday wishes to those born on the 12th of June!
(a day late)
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ALECIA (:
it's been nice having you as a classmate (for PAE at least) and now just a friend a class away! hope you and glenn stay awesome together and have a wonderful day today!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY HANS (:
I'm SORRY for what i said to you the first time we met (though i honestly don't remember saying it) SO LETS JUST FORGET IT AND MOVE ON YES? =D
You've been great company and i hope you'll have an awesome birthday today!

(this is the only decent photo i have of you in my entire photo collection!)

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ALVIN (:
vice-president of the slut club, enjoy your day, i'm sure you will and take care!

edit//
starbuck-ed with puiyee, berhan and jocelyn.
did a little bit of econs, a little( very small bit) of math.
anyway, they have like this new drink which i absolutely LOVE.
its called dark mocha frapp, or something like that, go try it!
I've found a new lovee. (:

Had carl's junior for dinner.
its my 2nd time there and gosh the burgers are like, huge!
Impossible to finish on your own so go with a friend.

oh and have a mentioned?
i have the smartest friends, ever.
who do the smartest things and cheer you up in the most retardest ways =D

Watched KongFu Panda with Hans, Shawn/Sean and Simon!
IT'S CUTE! go watch it (:
ohoh it was my 3rd? time to the cathay and i like the theaturee (:
as in, there are like curtains and light and everything it looked like those play places. =D
Didn't quite manage to get home before my parents did but thank goodness they were in nice, pleasent moods. (:
oh and my dad is baccckkk (:

i miss my camera.

Today.
i will STAY HOME and study. so i realise i ought to start on math and china studies todayyy because i've put em off wayy too long.
study study study timee. how exciting.

Damaged is stuck in my head!

Baby this situation's driving me crazy.
So how are you gonna fix it?

much love! (:

2008-06-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

Because i got tagged by zara.
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your first reaction be?
i'd cry, run away, date his best friend then stab him to death. (I"M KIDDING, well sort of)
#2 If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
to be happy sounds good.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
don't want to? but i always wanted to retire by the sea
#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
nope not really.

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
don't have a serious list of expectations? intelligent conversation holder and the ability to make my day (:

#6 Which would you rather, loving someone or being loved by someone?
be loved. can't i have bothhhhhhhh. zara you suck

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
what kind of question is that!

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
if we're friends, i'd distance myself far far far awayy.

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yeahh definately it's normal aint it.

#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
a little bit of both i guess

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
FAT and OLD.

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
God, Family, Friends. You,

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
odd, in a nice and funny way. good company, looks scary in the dark. =D

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single & rich,

#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
press my snoze alarm and oversleep, always.

#16 Would you give your all in a relationship?
i guess so.

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
neither. i'd be too confused. and the choice isn't mine, it's theirs isn't it!

#18 Would you fall for a friend?
yeahh i guess so you never know

#19 What type of friends do you like?
genuine ones. (:

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
the manipulative sorts.

TAGGED: EUNICE (LAU), LINGXIN, PAMMIE, CONRAD, YONGKUN.

kayyy, times to study now!
much love (:

2008-06-11T15:40:00.001+08:00

the June holidays are Almost over and i haven't completed even close to half of my syllables.
shoot me please.

I'm an addict for dramatics
I confuse the two for love

2008-06-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

-watched Made of Honour with Eunice, Zara, Lingxin and Kityee todayy (:
like finallyyy.
-shopping (:
-joined by jia li, josiah and royce minus two for dinner.
-studied a little bit more at starbucks after!

loved the company! too lazy for bloggingwords.

best friends, ex-friends till the end.
much love (:

2008-06-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

happy 17th birthday char!
happy 17th birthday suet!

so i spent almost all of friday in school,
val's cousin's western food is SO DECIEVING.
like, the portions look small,
but they are darn filling!
note to self and team: eating two hours before training is NOT a good idea.
training trainingg.
i need to work on chemistry with C and GA!
loved sitting on sidewalks and random staircases with eunicee and just talking
HAH I SENT YOU HOME AND DIDNT GET LOSTTT (:

met debbie this morning to study,
which didnt quite work out because we had so much catching up to do!
but i don't mind sacrificing grades for quality time spent <3
watched August Rush after cell,
its darn sweet!!
i got like, goosebumps watching it,
or maybe it was just the airconditioning.

okay yay i'm really happpy (:

its time i started to settle down away from holidaying mode,
and nerd towards geek excellence.

much love!

2008-06-05T22:21:00.002+08:00

i totally overslept this morning and missed my macdonald's breakfast ):
but had sakae instead which kind of made up for it! =D

watched Narnia: Prince Caspian i likeed it much.
next is made of honour!
can't wait.
bumped into hannah (: yes we will study date soon,
and

oh and there's officially 18days left till midyears.

much love.

2008-06-04T14:22:00.001+08:00

This is random,
but as i looked through those emails,
i realised it was all words.

and perhaps you never meant them in the first place.

but i'll never know.
much love.

2008-06-02T14:21:00.003+08:00

I SAW GRANVILLE <3<3<3
was walking at holland V with Shan when we saw this familiar looking figure with his golden retriever turn a corner (:
spent the night at shan's,
tanning in the morninggg,
townned,
Class dinner at cheryl's later =D

oh and studied for a bit with puiyee and berhann

I need to start (serious) studying sooon. ):

you know something,
its called double standards.
she never claimed perfection,
so why do ya'll expect so darn bloody much?

thats what you get when you let your heart win.

pictures up tonight!
much love.

2008-06-01T12:06:00.001+08:00

i think i'm moving, temporarily to my livejournal blog.
ask me for the link! (:

2008-05-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

i've been getting nice, surprise calls as of late (:

today, the phone rang and it was an unknown number.
voiceonthephone:hello,grace?
me:uh hi.
voiceonthephone:do you who i am!
me:no..
voiceonthephone:granville.
me:OHMYGOD =D

haha hokay i don't think that made sense but AHHH, with you getting
S-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y grounded it seriously seems as though you've completely disappeared off the face of the planet! (it's impossible for me to get in touch with you) so thank God you called (:

i remember last year that i got to see you almost every single day at guthrie during O level study periods! random times at holland V and town, late night phonecalls, sleepovers with the rest and even KAP moments. but that all seems so long ago and i really, really miss having you around. ):

Back in sec two when we first met, you were lateee, (and completely missed the movie)- i never thought we would eventually become such good friends. (:
its been like, close to four years and in that time you've gone through a lot of ups and downs with and for me i seriously <3 you. Putting up with all my nonsenseee and the terrible, unglamourous sides of me only you have seen, cheering me up constantly, i don't know how i am going to find another one like you.
you'll never get to see this (what with you being cut off from the outside world-no phone, no net)
but i am so glad to have found a friend like you and thinking about how you're going to fly off makes me want to cry. ):
okay the more i think about it, the more I MISS YOU and yes i am going to find some way to see you if it takes sneaking out to meet you in the middle of the night at holland. =D (even facing your scary looking maid who FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON, does not like to let me get near you. HAHA.)
AHHH!): i don't want you to leave.

we hate goodbyes.

much love ):

2008-05-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back

anyway thanks mel for the overseas call it totally made my day (:

2008-05-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

when i'm with you,
i'll make every second count.

cause i miss you.
( whenever you're not around. )

taufik gives like, the BEST advice. (NOT)
but somehow,
i enjoy your company anyway.

much love!

2008-05-25T14:53:00.004+08:00

food indulgence day yesterday (:
it started because of the barbequed ribs at cell,
so i decided to just pig out the rest of the dayy.

anyway! caught Indiana Jones last night with nic,
dinner/supper at gelare, caught up.
it's funny how time flies and our frienship has somehow managed to survive these five years now. anyway hope you enjoyed yourself and take care in the army!(:

webcamming with mary now,
I MISS YOU MUCH ):
oh and aphia's back from the states!
she hasn't changed at all. but it was really nicee to see her again.

okay i'm just freezing my ass off at starbucks, rambling to kill time whilst eunice takes forever to arrive.

a random conversation,
M:i was watching the 9o'clock last night, and i felt scared.
G:oh really, why?
M: what if those close to you die, i wouldn't know what to do!
G:why are you being so Morbid!
E:i don't want to die, cause if i die, i'll be missing my family.
G:but you'll be dead.
E:oh. what happens if you knew you were going to die tommorrow?

T: why are you living for? what happens after you complete your studies, and start work. just make more money? what happens after death? what is your purpose in life?

food for thought.

i guess not

much love!

2008-05-24T14:22:00.003+08:00

i guess everyone's entitled to their own opinions but gosh,
its funny how you can be so ready to say something like about how someone has 'mistreated' you,
but totally fail to see it whenever you said darn bloody insensitive things to others around you. (often.)
Go figure.

anyway on to happier things (:
GP paper is like, over! so i guess one down, some more to go.
pigged out on alecia's early birthday ice cream cake! towned with paul and lingxin, spent the latter part of the dayy with eunice and sonia! <3
watched what happens in vegas AGAIN, (because i said i would)
sonia's housee (SMALL WORLD)
daily scoop,
sidewalk talks. (:

the June holidays are here,
SHOPPING (:
(yes and holiday schooling, training but lets not think about that just yet.)
(:

whispers, "hello, i miss you quite terribly"

okay i need to go shower and leave the house noww,
muchlove.

2008-05-22T14:55:00.003+08:00

so like, the guys are being totally retarded in the library.
wong jieh, berhan, shazwan, cynric, neeraj and ulysses.

I AM NOT EMO.
and you guys can go jump off the empire state building just because.

i'm blogging for the sake of.
SHUT UP BERHAN AND WONG JIEH.
yeah. i believe so.

and this post isn't going to make any sense to anyone else but ya'll.

go on and pretend like you don't know

much love.

2008-05-22T13:55:00.001+08:00

but i don't want to.

2008-05-22T13:34:00.003+08:00

So maybe i do things you can't comprehend,
but there are two sides to every story.

perhaps what you think is true isn't true,
and you shouldn't judge what you don't know.

for one split second, she almost turned around.
but that would be like pouring raindrops, back into the clouds.

muchlove.

2008-05-19T19:07:00.007+08:00

the long weekend's coming to an end,
but thank God for the break from everything,
and time to just spend quality time with the people around you. <3

My dad's back in Singapore (:
i really miss him alot and sometimes i wish he didn't have to be in Indonesia all the time, and only get to visit us once a month.

But he's still the best (:

the past three days have been like, a blur.
a good, happy feel kind of blur, (:
but yeah, in random order.

Holland V-ed for dinner with eunice and shanisee!
headed down to Hannah's place to celebrate her belated birthdayy.

but like she said, it was like a small gathering, more of an opportunity for everyone to meet up, catch up and spend some time together. (:
i don't havee many pictures! but like who was it, Eunice i think? said, its all about what's left in your memory.
saw shanise, dawn, peter, Alex, sa, Pammie, Dee, hyung, Cheryl, qiyang, shanya, Eunice, Hannah, Luke!
i haven't seen some of you guys since forever and misses much!

towned for abit with Hans, Wayne and Ernest before (finally) catching Iron Man!
(in my recently discovered place known as the TP entertainment center)
Enjoyed the show and the company (:

night out with the Babs. HAHA. okay yes.
i do not have the ability to stay up 24/7,
and the streets are full of ___________ at night/early mornings.
caught what happens in Vegas !
i enjoyed it (: haha, though it's your typical chick flick/romantic comedy.

birthday lunch for soph and deff at white dog cafee!
sentosa in the morning
(dorcas i admire you for being able to perservere and give us that many wake up calls! =D)
omgosh the sun is darn HOT.
and the beach is really nice and empty in the morning if all of you wake up by 630.
haha. anyway, I'm really really thankful for each and every one of you,
even though we all have had our differences in the past,
everything's managed to work out and seriously i love you guys!
shopping soooonn.

dinnertime! pictures up when i get em uploaded or from the rest (:
much love!
[in the back of my mind i feel the pressure of pending homework.
its the last week of the terrrmm.]

What do you do,
When your heart is saying yes and your mind is saying no?
Forget it thats what. (it's probably just a phase we all go through)

much love!

2008-05-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

today was a good day (:

firstly, i LOVED the weather.
especially the rain where you can just sit at the grandstand and enjoy it.

secondly, PJC volleyball boys won their Match and are placed 3rd! =D
it was really exciting and oh so inspiring, really.

thirdly, Guthriee!
i miss that place so bad. ):
studied abit with eunice and hans,
met shanise and dawn <3
but had to leave early so missed out shanya and hannah~

there's always friday (:

lastly, (most significantly)
that talk with you, which made me realise so many things and for a moment,
brought me back to God again.

oh Lord you've searched me,
you know my way,
even when i fail you,
i know you love me.

Much Love!
Goodnight (:

2008-05-13T22:25:00.001+08:00

i am utterly mortified. :X

don't tell me you're sorry when you're not.

2008-05-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hello. I’m on the way back from kallang now. And I can’t sleep due to the fact that I had 12hours of sleep last night. <3, I shall attempt to blog. Well today was, interesting? I guess. PJ won (: Ac won, raffles won. Expected I guess! Cept I thought hwa chong fought really hard. Okay one last random netball postage, congrats to Jia hua and Rachel for making captain and vice captain. (:

Anyway now that all the seasons are over and stuff, its time to settle down and really study. EUNICE! I KNOW YOU THINK MY MATH SUCKS (which may prove to be true) BUT I’M GOING TO TRY HARDER FOR MIDYEARS. =D
I am self grounding during the June holidays, I must, I will. (Try my best.)

Friday at hannah’s coming up soooonish, can’t wait!
Its always nice to meet up again with the rest, I hope everyone is doing well wherever they may be.Thanks chow for the sms, it was really sweet (:

We’re going around in circles.
So grow up, get over it.

China studies essays, P&P annotations, Chinese composition, Mathematics tutorials, Study for Economics, Literature, Finish up PW.

Procrastinating’s evil.
But then, so’s all talk and no action.

I don’t understand you at all. (was that your intent all along?)

Okay I’m going to get carsick soon.
i feel fat.

Much love!

2008-05-11T16:24:00.001+08:00

from friday (:

2008-05-10T19:40:00.006+08:00

i'm late i'm late but

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY HANNAH! <3

remember when? time flies like mad,
i hope you're enjoying yourself at TP! you know i was thinking about it with eunice and gosh i really miss the times we spent,and even though i dont talk to you or see you around that much i really appreciate everything we've gone through together. thanks for being there during all the ups and downs, china trip! the crazy fitness period, the random times. i'm not good with words but really, much love. (: can't wait to see you friday!! you've been much missed and even though its so silly how only during birthdays do we all get to see each other proper, i'm still thankful for these times .

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY PAUL! <3

this was waayyy back. =D haha, anyway i know friday wasn't exactly the best day for a birthday but CHEER UP (: make it up during the holidays! anyway it's been like, five months since i first started talking to you on the bus to town but i'm so glad i did! thank you so much for just being there, and always knowing the right words to say, just being you. you've been fantabulous and i love you much!
(:

my heart's feeling all funny.
i miss you, love.
i'll keep you my dirty little secret,
who has to know?

2008-05-08T13:12:00.002+08:00
I'm in GP now, contemplating missing math to go support Volleyball!
(i seriously need to overcome my stupid fear of math)

met up with Shanya, Conrad and Yongkun in town after netball last night.
i really really enjoyed your company guys hope to see ya'll again soon! (:

there's never enough time for me to fully catch up with ya'll,
but i enjoyyed the bus journey back and the dinner!
i would put pictures up but my camera dieed.

'rapid progress has brought about an improvement in the quality of life' how far do you agree with this statement?

ahhh! i need a break. and sleep. ):

muchlove.

2008-05-06T22:32:00.003+08:00
change is never easy,
but i'm not giving up.
(not yet.)

at eunice's noww!
i'm so so so darn sleepy,
thank god tmr is a friday (:

on a random note,
i miss Sclub7!
hahaha, just watched their movie from 3409857309482039 years ago?
brings back all those memories.
i don't know,
is 17 years a long time?
book reading time!

you tell me.

muchlove.

2008-05-06T00:09:00.001+08:00
start a new fashion,
wear your heart on your sleeve.

___________
more than you know. (:

much love!
goodnight.

2008-05-04T22:57:00.004+08:00
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I'm terrible at choices.

"sorry but, no dating in the library, and this is the children's section. "
i didn't know such a rule exists?
and no, that particular librarian just has something against us i think. x)

anyway! i need to start on literature sooon,
my time management is, rawh, hopeless.
i'm going to get a laptop tomorrow! (: (: (:
(unless my mom changes her mind)

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DANIEL!

on a random note,
i'm glad i got to spend more time with the brothers and sisters this week (:

ohgosh school's starting againnnn,
i need motivation. ):

"I don't want this night to end"

muchlove.

2008-05-03T22:22:00.005+08:00
Congrats to the Volleyball boys for winner HC!
fingers crossed for finals (:

Dinner-ed with the netties after training,

overslept and missed Iron Man this morning. ):

Went to the Riady's place at sentosa cove for cell group followed by dinner,
it's so darn beautiful seriously.
you'd feel as though you're in a movie set or somethingg.
the carpeted floors, the uniformed help, the walk in wardrobe, the wonderful food, the lighting, EVERYTHING.
You'll completely fall in love with the place.

proof! nathan's weird.

haha! anyway is it just me,
or is the weather being such a bitch these past few days?
it must be global warming, we're all going to die ):

OH! i wants to watch IRONMAN sooon =D

okay much love,
(i'm feeling really lazy and sleepy)
goodnights!

happy thoughts

2008-05-02T10:19:00.003+08:00
hello we are asyraft and shazwan.We're the blog police. It has come to our attention that this blog contains many offending materials such as sadness and depression. We're now implementing code "happiness". HAPPY blogging.

Grace adalah seorang yang lawa dan amat cantik.Walaubagaimanapun,dia sedang mengalami kesdihan yang mendalam.Saya,sebagai kawannya mahu menolong dia untuk menjadi bahagia.MAJULAH GRACE.HAHAHAHAHHAA.Ber han menyuruh saya memanggil grace ***** ****** tetapi saya tidak akan membuatnya.LOLS.
-MUCH SAYANG, Shazzy.

edit//
thanks guys! (: and no sillies you just don't notice the happy parts.
much love

2008-05-02T09:53:00.002+08:00
it's getting incredibly frustrating & i can't seem to help feeling this way.
which sucks because i hate the feeling of losing control and not knowing what comes next.
(it feels like I've been here before.)

your actions and your words are in total contradiction,
caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new.

we're running ourselves into a brick wall
and sooner or later its gonna come crashing down upon our heads.

i guess blissful oblivion is the way to go but maybe you should take a reality check one of these days. (but love, perhaps your selfish side is showing.)

i want to scream and laugh and cry and be devoid of all emotions,
at the same time.

nothing i am saying is making much sense to me, (so definitely not to you)
perhaps i should stop now.
i would say that i don't bloody care anymore
(but I've never been a good liar.)

much love.

2008-05-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

there's nothing left to say anyway.

2008-05-01T21:43:00.006+08:00
pictures from today (:

the rest up later when i get em (:
edit//

anyway i realized today i've know you guys from church for 12years and counting!
so lets keep each other strong,
and despite all our busy schedules,
bring each one closer to each other and back to God.
<3

the kind of flawless i wish i could be

2008-05-01T11:33:00.003+08:00
yes eunice i'm going to kill you when i see you. =D

I AM DARN PROUD OF OUR NETBALL TEAM. (:
you girl's fought so darn hard and never gave up,
not till the final whistle.
we're into the next round!
Continue to perservere, work as a team and also have fun.
ALL THE WAY PJ NETBALL <3

i guess it's human nature to judge,
but sometimes it gets a little bit hard to take it all in,
i'm not guilt free,
but i don't go to the other extreme either.
thanks for being there for me so much,
i really appreciate it and even though last night ended on such a weird note,
i don't regret it & yes i was being irrational,
but i just need space to sort out my thoughts and all.
this is corny but you're special to me so i'm sorry if i was a tad bit much of a bitch.

okayyy, i need to go shower and leave the place noww.
chill-out at Joash's and Dinner with S7<3
Happy Labour Day ya'll,
have a nice rest?

much love!(:

2008-04-29T17:03:00.003+08:00
i'm freezing my ass off in the library at the moment.
But anyhow,
quick update on the weekend! (:

Went for Acisan theature's Pride and Prejudice Friday Night.
it was rather enjoyable, though the cast did not resemble in any way what i had expected to see. (INSIDE)
Me and Lauu went mad over _________________ HAHA. okay randomness aside,
it was great seeing all the Past Mg girls, oh and bernette! (:

Saturday, headed down to Shanya's place in Johor with Shanya, Chow, Pammie, Rachael, lizzie and hannah! i loveee the place seriously, like, its the perfect place to go to if you ever need a break from your hectic schedules. the atmostphere's great. can't wait for the sleepover during the June Holidayyys. and oh oh oh! Mrs Tan cooking is THE BEST. you'd totally die obbessed but you'd die a happy and satisfied person.=D anyway its always great to see you guys, i hope guthrie works out (:

Sleptover at shanya's (singapore) and had out usual catch ups, late night talks (:

hellllooofriends eunice is taking over now hehe
school sucks,generally.and pe is cancelled.my fitness level is dying at an insanely rapid rate and pretty soon i will be some fat blob EWWWWW>:(
alrights i've got absolutely nothing on my mind now (which is a good thing!!) so seeeeyaaa around!:)

p.s. grace is gonna kill me for this
:D

2008-04-29T04:55:00.002+08:00
Shanya's!

details and rest of the pictures up tonight,
essay writing to do!

muchlove (:

2008-04-27T23:50:00.001+08:00
i need my coffee. ):

2008-04-24T01:04:00.003+08:00
Its 1a.m and sleep still eludes me.
Perhaps i'll stay up all night tonight.
This post is going to consists of random,ramblings.

I HAVE THE SUDDEN URGE TO GO SHOPPING.
clothes-shoes-wallet-handphone(have you seen the state of abuse it's gone through?)-laptop-etc-etc-etc-etc!

I know i need to watch my diet,
BUT I REALLY LOVE MY ICE-CREAMS/MOCHAS/WAFFLES/NUTELLA/CHIPS/FRIEDCHICKEN/FRIES/CHICKENRICE ):
ohwell.

RUN RUN RUN.
get out of this state of unfitness by may.
(i lack self-discipline at times i'm afraid)

.
i miss being 7-years-old.
remember sunday school?
attending first year at MG!
I miss the bubble of blissful oblivion we lived in.
The kind of happiness only brought about by the kind of simplistic understanding of the world that is uniquely in the sight of children.
even our 'fights' were wholly immature and looking back you just laugh at yourself, yet envy?
The 'fantabulous' hairstyles we all went through,
i can never figure out how our parents let us wander around looking like that!
our brains weren't conditioned yet.
stress didn't actually exist in our dictionaries.

.

blogging's evil.
My PI's still undone.
i'm a wonderful procrastinator.

random pictures (:

dinner with conrad tomorrow! finally (:
i hope shanise's friday guthrie plan works!
and that everyone can make it for saturday (:

i shall concentrate on making the grade for PI noww!
muchlove,
goodnight.

2008-04-23T23:07:00.004+08:00
i am extremely grateful to God for the friends that he's placed in my life over the years.
was thinking about it on my way home, and it occurred to me that despite everything that seems to go wrong,
there's always the people that are there to make it better or just cheer you up, make your day.
i don't know, random ramblings. (:

OKAY! time for PI. rawh.
i need time to freeze for about threedays.
much love!

&i know that its so cliche, to tell you that
everyday i spend with you is the new best day of my life <3

2008-04-20T21:13:00.003+08:00

mos burger-ed with mun and deff todayy,
i realise how much i've distanced from my church friends and yes,
i will make an effort to spend more time with you guys, promise (:
sleepover soon at sherllie's!

random bumping incident with chuan yu and mom.
oh yes and apparently walked right pass chew tai li while we were on our way home! sorry friend. =D

Ice-cream and brownie-ed at Swensons,
followed by the Forbidden Kingdom (movie),
had the most though-evoking conversation i've ever had in the longest time.
Thanks for being there for me and putting up with my emotional nonsense.
i'm so glad to have found you really.

okay HOMEWORK'S PILING UP,
i'm starting to panic.
and no i'm not gonna burn out berhan,
i hope not):

much love!
goodnight (:

2008-04-20T01:40:00.001+08:00
&i don't know what i feel about you now.

2008-04-20T00:05:00.002+08:00
i totally overslept today!
and missed PAST VS. PRESENT ):
but its okayy, there's always all the years to come.
haha. sooo woke up at like, 2?
went down to tpy to study for a bit,
watched Street King!
i realise i have a very low tolerance for violencee.
i enjoyed today, thanks for the company love.
HAHA.

alright its 12ish,
long day tmr i suppose?
i need to blowdry my hair now.

there's absolute no proper structure to this post.

much love,
goodnight. (:

2008-04-17T14:45:00.004+08:00
i guess somedays everything just doesn't seem to go your way,
today seemed to be that day for many so CHEER UP EVERYONE (:

"harry potter is so damn good everyone should go get it if they have any boring lesson!

NEW WORDS I LEARNT TODAY
lucid=clear
elucidate= to show
gay = grace"

says the biggest idiot of earth sitting next to me at the moment.
hans benjamin carter
ACSInternational Vs. Evergreen rugby at SA later on, 530.

okay so like, the bell's gonna ring soon!
muchlove

2008-04-15T22:09:00.003+08:00
it's incredibly scary how one can be so fickle minded.
i slept alot today, and oh gosh
NIGHTMARE ):
but it's a very vague memory now.
just like the way it is.

i miss you already.

2008-04-15T11:38:00.002+08:00
it's Elearning day.
only problem? the Portal is down.
i don't know whether to laugh or cry.

haha anyway HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JOCELYN

much love

2008-04-14T22:12:00.002+08:00
back from studying with lauu <3

I DID NOT FAIL ECONS (:
i'm really happy and thankful that God is still there for me though i have been less than faithful. he is mighty to save<3
was talking to shanya jsut now and yeah, he works in the most mysterious ways but no matter what situation we are being put through, he has a purpose.

God has not promised skies always blue,
but he has promised strength for day, light for the way.

i'm not sure if you'll read this but,
chin up boy,
things will look up soon cause yknow,
he'll never forsake us (:

okay!
tommorrow's a day off for all of us (technically though we have online homework)
so breakfast at 10 at HV with son and shan! if i wake up in time that is.

muchlove,
goodnight.

2008-04-14T12:50:00.003+08:00
did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

just came back from the doctor's,
I'm down with the dreaded FLU ):

but anyway, i learnt how to play two new games! (sort of at least)

MAHJONG AND BRIDGE =D

pictures from joce's!

okay i need to go take medication now,
much love!

2008-04-12T22:37:00.002+08:00
i woke up this morning feeling terrible. :X
my throat hurts, i can't speak and my skin feels all hot and cold at the same time.
spent the whole day in bed,
shot are my plans to study today.
rawh.

i hate falling sick. ):

2008-04-10T22:52:00.002+08:00
for some reason, my whole body is aching like mad.
my brother says it's the lactic acid like, too much biology.

anyway! watched definately, maybe with benjamin todayy.
it is SUCH a typical chick flick. haha! thanks for accompanying me to watch such a show the day before enlistment! HAHA, i know it was close to torture xD

met shanya for dinner after that!
don't worry too much about school girl,
things will get better soon!
anyway great seeing you <3

met paul and zul at lido after for a bit,
i love the company.

Anyway! i need to focus on school.
Cheer up joash (:

goodight!
much love.

2008-04-09T23:08:00.003+08:00
talking to shanya on the phone nowww (:
I MISS YOU GIRL AND I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN IN SCHOOL. <3<3

today was really really tiring, like physically and maybe just a little bit of emotionally.
but i'm glad there's always God and my friends to help me pull through the day (:

subway-ed with eunice, hans, cyn and friends after training,
it was quite fun! haha. i realised today they're quite nice company.
oh bumped into gengzhong at the traffic light! total randdom incident.
anyway boy i'm glad you've like, tamed down and all, if you know what i mean.

GRANVILLE! i don't know if you'll ever get to see this but i just heard about school and please get in touch with me asap i have no way of calling and i miss seeing you around friend. ):

okay ahh, tmr's gonna be a loong day. and there's PI to do.
so goodnight,
much love <3

2008-04-08T22:10:00.002+08:00
it amazes me how many things can happen in the space of one day,
the revelations you gain at the end of one conversation.
but today was pretty eventful,
in so many ways.

From the Inside out <3

2008-04-07T23:02:00.003+08:00

i finally had time (and energy) for dance lesson on saturaday! (:
yes, and ooh went to the new (sortofnew) japanese food place at raffles city?
it's called Shokudo i think! to have dinner cause benjamin and daniel are enlisting! =D have fun guys, come out all fit and stuff yes?

sleepover at debs! i love my late night catch ups with you, and your company of course <3

Met shanya, eunice and hannah and starbucks after the service and yes i miss you guys so much i'm so glad we all still make the effort to meet up and i can't wait for Johor! (:

haha OH. and today one of joseph's friend (whom i have never met before) told me that "hey you look like this girl called grace." Blonde statement of the day =D

okay yes this isn't much of a proper update i supposed but gosh it's 11ish and i've work to rush and sleep not to be missed so,

Goodnight,
much love! (:

insignificantly enough,
we both have significant others.

2008-04-04T22:39:00.002+08:00
every time i have a change of heart,
something happens that reminds me why i decided to forget all about you in the first place,
and that ignorance is bliss.
(at least in your case)
i'm better off without you.